Okay. I decided to edit my about me section. I don’t really know why. It’s not like I’m interesting or anything.
….I mean. I’m SO interesting. Keep reading. :D (You should also click HERE posts about me~ )
My name is Alyssa. I am 22, my birthday is July 27th.
I graduated from college a year ago (have a degree in Telecommunications), and I’ve done nothing with my life since then. Why? Because I’ve gone through a lot of things in my life and each event has messed me up thoroughly. :) I’m on medicine for Depression and Anxiety. I also have PTSD, Dermatillomania, ADD, and my body is falling apart. I probably need surgery on it (my shoulders), or I could find out a way to download a better body. I’m hoping for the second! Which also means…I currently don’t have a job. I want to get everything fixed with me, or at least my anxiety. Having panic attacks at work is horrible, and I don’t want to go through it again.
Despite all of that, I’m still a good person. I care WAY too much about everyone, and not enough about myself. I’m working on it though. I’m now seeing a psychologist. She’s pretty amazing. She’s also helping me realize a lot of things that I never noticed before. Like, how things I thought were always my fault, weren’t. It was just mind games my family played with me. I like making people happy so they never have to feel the way I do.
My life hasn’t been the best. My father was an asshole during my childhood, which ended up in a divorce and emotional issues on my part. I get clingy because of horrible abandonment issues, and other things. The anxiety kicks in. My mind isn’t the best thing to be alone with at night.
I’m working on trying to become a better person, and feeling better about myself. I think it’s working. I’m feeling slightly comfortable in my own skin, and I’m doing things that I normally wouldn’t. I’m finally becoming the person I want to be. It’s a long process, but I can do it. :)
I am the oldest of 4! Woah! How can someone handle the responsibility? That’s easy! I don’t. I usually just hide in my room and pretend I don’t exist.
My sister Lauren is going to be 20 in November. She’s in college to become a cop. None of my family or friends can see her being a cop because she weighs about 90 pounds. She had trouble opening her locker in school. She couldn’t lift the handle. Her using a gun will be rather interesting, and I’d rather not see it. But, whatever. More power to her! If it makes her happy, then I’ll stand behind her no matter what.
Then there’s the twins. Billy and Hannah (picture quality sucks. thanks iPod). They are going to be 9 in December! They’re getting SO BIG and it makes me want to cry. They live with our dad and their mom. Janet’s okay. She’s rude at times, but what can you do. Billy looooves video games (just like his big sister), and he’s a little snarky thing. Hannah loves princesses and pink things. She’s a drama queen. I love both of them so very much. I don’t get to see them that often. When I was younger, I was terrified that they were going to forget who I was. But, whenever I come over….they have a huge smile on their face. “LYS, LA-LA!! WE MISSED YOU!” They call me Lys, and Lauren, La-la. They have since they could talk. :) I can’t wait until I can have my own place so I could steal them for a bit. I’d be so happy. But also nervous because they’re insane.
I live at home with my mom. Well…mom, step-dad, sister, uncle (on the weekends currently), and our animals. Two cats and a dog! I have Maggie, Daytona, and Kobe. Don’t judge their names. I didn’t name them. But, you can probably guess that my step-dad likes sports. You should see our walls and cupboards. Maggie is 13, Daytona is 10, and Kobe will be 2 next year. They all hate each other. :D (I’m Maggie’s favorite human though)
Okay so. More about me? I like pretty things! Flowers, paintings, pictures, clothing, the color purple or pretty colors, things like that.
I love music. Anything with a heavy guitar makes me happy. <3 I do NOT listen to country, rap, pop, or anything like that. No no no. Unless I’m forced to. Then I just stare out the window and pretend I’m somewhere else. I probably daydream more than anything else.
I love video games, but I’m not too good. Final Fantasy, Pokemon, Legend Of Zelda, Atelier Iris (1, 2, 3) etc etc etc. I’m TERRIBLE at first person shooters. So, never ask me to play. I’ll watch, but that’s it. Same goes for horror games. Sorry. Don’t ever make me watch anything about zombies because I will cry. (The Last Of Us is fantastic, but zombies scare me)
I enjoy movies!! I’ll watch just about anything. Except…pure romance. If there’s comedy, sure! If it makes me cry, well, screw you. I love Disney! <3 Tim Burton, dark creepy things, yes yes yes. As well as Studio Ghibli. Anything with Johnny Depp? COMICS. Blah blah blah.
Animals make me happy. I love cats so very much. I want to hug all of them. You’ll see a lot of cute animals on my blog.
Sorry. My mind is all over the place currently. I apologize.
I love Youtube! Danisnotonfire, Tobuscus, ROOSTER TEETH/ACHIEVEMENT HUNTER, Two Best Friends Play, etc. I watch so many videos a day, I don’t know how my brain hasn’t exploded.
I also like T.V. shows. My current shows are: Teen Wolf, Defiance, Awkward, Ghost Hunters, Paranormal Witness…I watch more, but I’m being lazy. (Face Off, Being Human, etc)
I’m an odd person. But, that’s okay. Feel free to follow me on Twitter too. You can even add me on Facebook. I rarely update because I hate all my friends on there. Hahaha. Kidding. (not really) Just let me know who you are!
I don’t entirely know what I’m doing with my life. My life revolves around doctor appointments, medicine, and the internet. :/ I want to move out and get my own place. I also want to take up photography and painting. I can’t really afford anything, nor do I have the space. Those will probably happen once I move out.